300
She sat back in her chair, closed her eyes and let her head fall back against the wall behind her. The lights overhead caused stars to burst beneath her eyelids like fireworks. She massaged her temples and took slow, deep breaths. With a sigh, she opened her eyes and sat forward, shuffling the sheets of wrinkled paper in front of her into order.
She leafed through them slowly, her cramped, erratic handwriting filling each page and spilling out into the margins. She'd numbered them as she went; the only sign of order on the crowded pages. She caught snippets as she skimmed along but didn't stop to read her reasons. She knew them all by heart.
She turned to the last page and ran her finger over the number at the bottom. 300. 300 reasons. She waited, let the quiet press in on her. It was right there in her own handwriting. 300 reasons why she should leave. 300 reasons why this would never work. 300 reasons to get up, take the suitcase waiting by the door and take herself away. She could start somewhere new. This could all by a faded memory.
She traced the number one more time, felt the impression it made on the paper.
"Don't be a fool," she whispered.
She stood up, went to the door and picked up the suitcase. Outside, she pulled the door shut behind her and fit her key into the lock. She stopped. Her suitcase sat quietly on the step beside her, adding nothing. She stood, the sun warm on her back, hand on the key. She couldn't turn it. She couldn't lock the door.
She pulled the key from the lock slowly and slid it back into her pocket. She picked up her suitcase and went back inside, down the hallway and into the bedroom to unpack her things. She may have had 300 reasons to leave him, but she only needed one to stay. She loved him.
There you have it! I hope you liked it, because it was either this or a list of three hundred reasons why I'm awesome. So, I think I clearly made the right choice. Hopefully, this has inspired you to follow my blog as well as perhaps come find me on twitter, @MelanieKCole. Either way, I appreciate you taking the time to read my scribbles and I always welcome your comments. Thank you for celebrating my three hundredth post with me, may it bring good luck to you all day long.
Hi Melanie!
ReplyDeleteI have missed your posts because of so much going on in my life, but now I am starting to catch up. As I flipped through your older posts, I saw this one and couldn't believe you have written 300 posts! That's a huge accomplishment and describes your dedication to your writing and also your desire to connect with you readers.
I also enjoyed this post in another way. It was like listening to you speak - how we wander from one subject to another. Also, your flash fiction in this post had romance at its heart and seemed poignant, especially w/Valentine's Day around the corner (I'm writing this on 2/13). But when I came down to the bottom of your post (I'm reading & writing this on my smartphone), I saw there were no responses! I couldn't believe it because you usually have at least one response.
I also was surprised to hear that you have around 30 subscribers. You are a very good writer. I think your flash fiction and 5 sentence stories are fun to read, intriguing & thrilling. In your other posts, we have the opportunity to learn more about you and your life. I think more people would like to read your blog. Therefore, I will mention your posts on Twittter, FB, & Google +. I have always enjoyed your work & I think others should enjoy it too!
Happy 300th Post!! I am sorry I am a bit late. But I am proud of you and happy to share this milestone with you!!
Monique
Thank you SO Monique! It's been such a pleasure getting to know you through twitter and Good Reads, I love your insights! I feel very lucky to know you and have your support! Cheers!
DeleteOh Lord, I really must proof read better. That should say 'thank you so much Monique". Oy.
DeleteNo worries! My mind read it as "so much." I didn't catch it until you mentioned it! And you know we all make errors here & there!
DeleteI have enjoyed getting to know you as well. Your blog is very personal and as I said above, you are brave for being honest and open. It says so much about you.
One question: Do you advertise each of your blog posts on Facebk, Twitter, Google+, Pinterest, etc.? If you do want more followers, that would help. Also joining an online blogging group or attending Twitter "meetings." I used to attend a great blogging group on twitter. I think it is called #blogchat & it's hosted by @MackCollier. It is on Sundays at 8pm for an hour. I met quite a few people there and I gained several Twitter & blog followers.
Just an FYI.
Thanks! That's great advice, I'll check it out!
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